I find myself in a malaise . . . yes a slump. The state of the economy and the worth of my limited dollar keeps me anchored very close to home now that I have retired. I find myself much like my gear sitting “Gathering Dust” Yes I am still a bit burned out from my 365 Project of 2013, thousands of photos which consumed several hours a day, rain or shine, healthy or sick I was glad to reach the goal I had set. I haven’t looked at the two terabits of photos since I ended the project shoot on 01-01-2014 and the final link and posting shortly thereafter. I didn’t pick up a camera for a week after that. I have slowly, very slowly started to pick my cameras up again. I still have the pull, the addiction . . . the need, to go and create photos. Yet, I feel as though I am moving through a viscous fluid. My mind is ablaze with ideas for future shoots and images that I want to create, but, I find myself at a crossroad in my life.
My photography has always been a need, a form of expression. I make photographs because I want to, because it pleases me, because it makes me happy. What you see in my posts are only the very tip of what I have recorded, on a glimpse into who I am and what I love.
Nature, Wildlife, Landscapes, Seascapes . . . the grand expanse of life and the beauty of it all. Yet I find myself locked in step to a sedentary life because of economics. So I have decided that it is a good time to do a bit of retrospective and slumming of my many terabytes of files and perhaps finish some long dreamed of ideas . . . here you see in this post several of the photos from a long running series of trees “the Trees I have known” and another series which is ongoing that I am shooting with an Infrared converted D50 Nikon titled “Another Light”.
I have looked seriously at “Self Publishing” these two series, or using one of the many “Publish on Demand” website companies, as well as a PDF version or a limited edition hand printed & bound portfolio. Again all these take funds and time. I continue to be stifled by lack of funds for at the moment what I deem wasteful in this economic environment.
So I find myself like my gear (and that is a copious amount) gathering dust. I read in an article by Thom Hogan recently that I enjoyed which was along the idea of scaling back. I will have to ponder this a bit as to which gear I want to keep and which gear I need to keep. So far the want has won out . . . I need to get real and honest with myself as I have turned 61 recently and am not getting any younger, besides that mound of gear I have accumulated far exceeds what I would carry anywhere and I really do not want to ruin my knees, hips and back anymore then I have already. Anyone know of a cheap Sherpa that will work for kind words and peanuts? No? I didn’t think so [insert wry smile here].
Anyway I thought I might write a bit, this gives me pleasure, the above photos are both recent and past. I have tons of unprocessed files residing across many many hard drives. Perhaps I should start the long process of cataloging and publishing these hidden treasures. As for all that gear, well I am still pondering that great garage sale . . . it is just gear but to me each piece is a treasure with a history and story. Until my next post, Have fun, get off your butt and go make some pictures. I will leave you with another favorite I processed.